Thinking back...

It's crazy how we can feel so bad and pessimist some days without any valid reason. Just to give an example regarding the post from 06/July/2007, well, I passed all my exams (some even with a really good mark), I went to TeenStreet, I'm going to Amsterdam for the Hillsong United tour and I did not get married, of course, I'm not intending to anytime too soon anyway, but I'm sure that if it's God's will, it will happen too!
All this desperation that comes over me sometimes makes me think about until which point do I trust God? I mean, I shouldn't worry about those things, I know that everything is going to be fine, but I can't help these feelings, and maybe that's one of those things that makes us human, but maybe I'm just a person that should trust God more!
These past weeks I got myself reading a lot of times the same thing...

"Proverbs 16
1 The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the LORD.
2 All the ways of a man are clean in his own eyes; but the LORD weigheth the spirits.
3 Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established.
4 The LORD hath made all things for himself: yea, even the wicked for the day of evil.
5 Every one that is proud in heart is an abomination to the LORD: though hand join in hand, he shall not be unpunished.
6 By mercy and truth iniquity is purged: and by the fear of the LORD men depart from evil.
7 When a man's ways please the LORD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him.
8 Better is a little with righteousness than great revenues without right.
9 A man's heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps."

...and specially the verses 1 and 9 have gotten my attention. For me it's like God's saying to me not to worry, because the answer of every plan I may do is His, the way to follow wherever I may Go is directed by Him, so all I need to do is to relax, to wait on Him, to do my deed and let the Lord take full control of my life. At the end it does not matter if I get sick so many times, if I don't like what I'm studying, if I'll get to go to TeenStreet or to the United concert, if I pass all my exams or not, those are all important things in life and I always want to do everything right in my life in order to honour God, so that people can see who the God I serve is, but none of those things can be solved by worrying, by thinking about them in advance.
Living life each day knowing that the Lord is directing my steps is a privilege that not so many people have, so, if I know this, my only worry should be to make as much people as I can to know that, that there is a God that can save us and direct our steps everyday!
In practice it's not that easy tough, so I'll just try each day to put all my trust in Jesus, and I'm sure He'll help me with my silly worries and make me see what's really important!!

And to summarize a song that I love and that explains so much about the way I feel so many times!!!


"Shifting Sand" by Caedmon's Call

God bless we all!