The beginning....

Well, actually I have no idea why I'm starting a new blog, and even less idea of why I'm writing it in English, but... I just felt like doing it.
I think it will help me feel more involved with something really worth it (even thinking that nobody will read it), because I'd like this blog to be something encouraging to people that has chosen to follow Christ as I did.
It's interesting, two weeks ago I was completely tired of hearing always the same things: "Oh, don't worry, everything you're going through will be paid off", "God loves you so much, look how far you've got", etc. I was really irritated, couldn't hear any of this things anymore, I didn't care if I'd have a recompense in the end, or if God loved me, I needed something else, but I was not sure what was this "something else"! For so long I've been a believer, a fighter, a person that most people admire for its perseverance, but what nobody ever realized is that I was just a girl searching for a meaning to my life, I once thought that if I had money to do whatever I wanted I'd be happy, then, a little time later, I begin to think that what I needed was a boyfriend, I got one, but he just made me feel emptier (and the end of this relationship was a miracle that I'll tell someday), so I began to think that professional success would be it, I needed to enjoy what I was studying and find pleasure in it, then I would have that "something else"! Well, wrong again!!
The thing that I've been missing all this time was not to be loved by God, by someone, to have money or professional success, what was missing was my love for God. I've always heard and saw those people that do things for God, that get so involved during praises, that pray out loud... and even being among them never made me feel what they seemed to be feeling, and that let me so sad. I realized what was missing almost a year ago, maybe a little more than one year ago, and differently from the other things I did before, I started to pray asking God to make me feel this love that people say they feel, I wanted to feel my heart beat just by hearing His name, I wanted to think that nothing else mattered all the time...

And then it happened...

Even though it's been some time since I made my decision of accepting Jesus Christ as my Saviour I feel like I've decided to become a Disciple of Him this last week! As everything that God does is so perfect, the experience I had last week was also perfect.
I went to a Youth Alive conference in Pisa, and despite my wish to serve God, to see people being reached, to live the revival, I was not so excited about this conference. All I wanted was to go there and see what I was used to see in Brazil: young people worshiping with all of their hearts; I was not expecting anything for me, I had been sad the past months and all I was looking for was to see something familiar to my eyes to cheer me up a little bit.
I got a lot more than that. Since the beginning of the conference the Holy Spirit moved everyone in a way I could never imagine, at least not here in Italy.
I can't tell how exactly it happened, but He gave me the love I was looking for, He filled me with so much love for Him that I can't stop dancing anymore. I surely will never be the same again... and I'm so happy that even going through the hardest (financially speaking) week I've had since I arrived in Italy I've never felt better (nor even in Brazil)!!!
With all this happiness my willing of serving God only increases each day, and as I don't know where or how to start, as I don't know yet what is my talent (I always wanted to sing, but I can't, I'm terrible at it), I thought of writing because I love to do it, and I want to do everything I love for God.
So that's it, the beginning of a new blog, beginning o a new life, beginning of a new freedom, beginning of a new LOVE!



My life is changed, I wanna be with You, I wanna be with You!!





"Now that You're near" by Hillsong


God bless you all!

P.S.: Sorry about my poor English, hoping to improve it!!